It’s surprising who in your life can step up and when. I’ve been going through a great deal of stuff. I’ve been having some mediums, some lows and some under the ground moments. I’m glad that there have been different people popping in my life lately. Most of them are new so I don’t trust them enough to tell them the ins and outs of my life but it’s nice just to be able to talk to people…even if it’s just about simple stuff and get my mind in a right space. I’m trying to treat everything as a learning experience and this whole thing has taught me to make some new friends. I only have one real friend that I tell everything to. Sometimes it is nice to have people to talk to about things that don’t matter…or to have someone to go to the mall with, to a party with, etc. I don’t have any of that because I’m used to staying at home talking to/thinking about the love of my life. So now I have to find something to do with my time.

I need a job. I’ve been actively looking for a job since February, if not before then. I’ve been on a numerous amount of interviews and I still don’t have a job. I don’t know what else to do. I feel like I’m not qualified or something. It’s hard. I’ve had a job since I was 17 so it shows that I’m able to keep a job and it also shows that I’m a good worker. I’m also in college and pursuing a degree. It’s like don’t you see that I’m trying? Why are things so hard? I’m not applying for jobs that I’m not qualified for. Sometimes I feel like being in school hurts more than helps because entry level jobs don’t want me because I have experience and jobs that require experience don’t want me because I don’t have enough experience. I’m sitting here wondering what I should do and what my next move is going to be. Everything is standing still because I don’t have a job and without a job I can’t pay off school, I can’t get an apartment and I can’t get a loan. People don’t understand but this is hard but basically I can’t do anything without a job and I have been trying to get one. Things are really hard right now.

I feel like the summer is zooming by but at the same time I’ve had a lot of time off. I really need to get a job soon! I plan on going out possibly later on today looking for something. It’s been so hard finding something and I’m just looking for a summer job! I need to make money so I can afford to live by myself next month. I really didn’t plan for things to be this hard, but it is what it is. That seems to be the story of life. Everything is hard but at the end of the day it is what it is. You can only do so much to change what is going on and usually that’s not enough.

I’m so proud of my mom. She’s been working on losing weight for the past month or two and she’s doing a great job. She’s already down 11 pounds! I really wonder where she would be if she decided to use weight loss pills. They do help when dieting and maybe even help you lose weight faster. I think I’ll mention this to her and hopefully it’ll help her get to her goal faster!

I am so excited that I am getting the opportunity to review cellular routers provided by Powerful Signal. Everyone knows by now that I have a Blackberry and I’ve been wanting to get a router so I can use my phone as a wireless router when I was away from home. I’m an internet junky so when I don’t have access to the internet I feel so lost. It’s sad but true! With this AirCard booster kit I’ll get the maximum use out of my cell phone. Once I start using this router I’ll be all over town with my laptop. In the park, at the mall, at the pool…EVERYWHERE! The internet will truly be at my fingertips. Once I get everything settled I’ll be making a video about my mobile router so be sure to look out for that!

Hey everyone! Guess what…I still have a site! I just remembered to pay my hosting bill. I need to change the email address because I never log into my other account so I don’t see the reminders. They gave me a 10 day period to pay so I was able to get the payment in before something bad happened! I’m glad about that…so I’m all paid up for another month. I’ve been late every month so far. Hopefully I’ll get it together soon.

It has been pretty hot and it’s not officially summer yet! I live up north so we get all four seasons and they usually stick around for a while. This year it hasn’t been like that. I feel like we’ve only had summer and winter. What happened to fall and spring…2 favorite seasons. I’m trying hold out on turning the air conditioner on as long as possible! Hopefully I don’t have to touch it at all this summer but it’s already starting off hot so I’ll probably be suffering by the time July rolls around. It’s been raining a lot too! I think that’s because it’s been so humid. Hopefully the summer isn’t too bad. One can hope, right?

I was just looking in the mirror and I noticed some reddish brown roots! I can’t tell you how excited I am! I dyed my hair jet black back in January and it’s still black. I had no idea it would last this long and I wasn’t willing to strip it so I’ve just been sitting and waiting…waiting and sitting. Now that I see some color in my hair I’m getting excited and I’m trying to figure out how I want to do my hair this summer. I think I’m really going to try to learn how to do tight curls. I want the natural curl look without going natural. I love that hairstyle on me but I haven’t figured out how to keep it up. Hopefully this summer I’ll learn! I can’t wait!!!

I am so tired! I feel like I’ve been doing a lot lately which is weird since I’m not in school and I’m not working. I have been a busy bee nonetheless. I’m just getting back in town today. Yesterday was different. Very different. I’ve never experienced anything like that before in my life and I’ll leave it at that. I feel like there’s so much that I need to do and I need to focus on that. I have so many sites just hanging out there. I have no idea what to do with them. I have a purpose for them all, I’m just too lazy to put a move on it. I need to start using my time wisely. I want to get all of this stuff done before school starts.

I’ve been out of school since April 18th. It’s been about 20 days. Time sure does fly. It doesn’t feel like it’s been that long. For the summer I plan on getting a job, saving up and moving. Hopefully I’m able to accomplish everything that I want to accomplish. It’s so hard to stay focused in the summer. I never have a summer that is totally free. I mean no work and no school. Just relaxing. Waking up and going to sleep when I please. Not leaving the house if I don’t want to. I’d like to experience that one day. It’s not going to happen anytime soon. I’d rather work now while I’m still young and rest when I’m older. Hopefully I’ll be able to!