Okay, so I haven’t updated here in a while. I was trying to wait until my life wasn’t going downhill, but that obviously isn’t gonna happen, so what the hey. Okay, so in the past week I failed a test, had a breakdown, and found out how jerky men can be. Well I knew that they were jerks, but damn, it’s like when you’re down they kick dirt in your eyes, take off their shoes and beat you, pick you up, and then throw you down. Yep. Oh, and I also failed an exam that I can’t afford to fail. That totally washes my 4.0 down the drain. I’m still looking toward that 3.5 area. All hope is not lost…yet. Well my parents issue is never gonna get better. I think it might, we go through situations that you would think make your family stronger but we end up back in the same situation. I just want to scream.

I took an exam tonight. I don’t think I failed. It was quite challenging but more on the tricky level. It was like do they want this, or are they asking for that. But this school is known for intentionally making extremely hard exams so people can fail. I think that’s the highlight of their career.

The girls are thinking about getting a place together, or at least near each other. I think that would be quite interesting. I think they’re cool to hang out with, I mean, they are my friends…but me and living with a bunch of girls. I don’t know how that’s gonna fly. Especially with the mixed attitudes and things. It’s quite questionable but at the same time I think it would be fun. It’s all in the college experience, I guess. Oh, and speaking of college…the Chemical Engineers are going to Hollywood, CA. I’m not a chemical engineer, but I do have to take more chemistry than I would like…so therefore if I want to go, I shall go. It all depends on who’s going. Sometimes it’s not even worth going with people you don’t talk to when you could have just stayed home and kicked it.

This weekend is Fall Study Break. Some take that term as a break from studying. Some use it as a break to study. I will do both. I wont go home because I don’t have a home to go to, but if I did go to visit my family I know I wouldn’t study, and it would only cause more drama which might lead me to not returning to school. I’m gonna go to work, go to the mall, get some piercings, do my hair, get my nails done…and study.

I should have did some kind of work after the exam today…but I didn’t. Now on Thurs. I have a paper due, a chapter that’s supposed to be read, and get this…a quiz. These people love messing with me. I just want to get through. Somehow…someway.

I wish I had heat. They wont turn it on. They do this every year…they make us freeze until they are sure that it’s gonna stay cold, and then once spring hits they keep the heat on to make sure that it’s gonna stay warm. That sounds like a good idea, but not when you are living…or better yet…trying to sleep in these conditions. It’s cold and I’m sure it’s not gonna get back up to 80 anytime soon so crank up the heat…and when spring hits turn it off. Sounds simple, right? Not to them. They don’t understand that if it does get hot we can always open up a window or turn on a fan…but when it’s cold you are stuck piling blankets on you when you only have one or two since this is a dorm. I’m getting sick again because of this. GRRRRR!!!

I know this blog has been like a complaining session, but I do have good news. I got a sidekick I ordered a bunch of music DVD’s…and I’m gonna work on this site this weekend! I know that’s gotta be the best thing you’ve heard in the past 2 seconds I’m also semi-working out/training. The doctor suggested it as a good way to deal with stress and depression so we’ll see what happens.