I feel all icky. I have a cold. My throat is so swollen. When I open my mouth wide I can barely see the back

Anyway, I think some of my school friends are mad at me. I’m not sure though. I know one day at dinner they came in when I was leaving out and said I wasn’t supposed to be there, and I told them why I changed my mind. My ex-roommate pissed me off so bad and I was so mad, so I went there to get my mind off of that. Anyway, yesterday on my way to Rite Aide I stopped by the barbecue since it was behind the bus stop and some of the upperclassmen I knew from boot camp or last year stopped me and we hugged and chatted for a minute. I went to the table they were sitting at and it was just like they didn’t even want to speak. I was like damn.

I’m thinking it was either because of the main reason I didn’t want to go…you know how people get around other people and act funny…or they are mad at me. I’m not pressed. I don’t ask for people to be my friends, and half of the time they aren’t really friends anyway.

I’ve gone back to my online shopping ways again. I’m going to stop…really. I’m going through my bank statement and you would not believe…smh. I was thinking about subscribing my little sister to Seventeen or some other magazine. I got 8 years of CosmoGirl a long time ago when I use to do this other business and it doesn’t expire until 2008…so instead of me changing the address again I might just put her name on it and let her have them. They just take up space when I have them in my dorm because I hardly ever read them unless I’m bored out of my mind.

This week has been quite different for me. I don’t even know what to say about it. All I know is I’m gonna contact the person who my contract is under and find out when I can get out because it is not worth all of this drama. I looked at it online and it says it expires in January of 2007. I can’t deal with these people for that long. I really don’t want to let that phone go though, cause it’s only $10 a month…and if I get my own plan it will be about $40 a month. I bought a blackberry and that will make my plan go up to $70 a month Blah. I wish the world didn’t operate on money. But I guess I can’t change that.

I have to work today. This will be quite interesting since I can barely speak. Plus my body is acting really weird. It does this when I start taking different meds. It’s quite scary, but what can I do???