My parents have a hard time with letting go. I know this is true with most parents, but don’t they realize how much it annoys the child when you treat them like they are 2 years old forever? I know it definitely annoys me. I just don’t feel like I should tell them every little thing that’s going on in my life, or what I want to do with my money or whatnot. If I wanted their opinion I would ask. I know if I was living under their roof, if they were supporting me financially things would be different, but they don’t…so why the pressure? It gets on my nerves. I want to get a Sidekick just because I think it’ll be useful and I want it…so why all the questions? I can’t just go out and get it like I wanted to because I have my mother’s cell phone in my name and that will cause confusion with the bill…and when I asked for her to put the SK in her name they start asking me all these questions. I don’t like dealing with questions. If I want something I just like getting it and getting it over with. I don’t like explaining every little step. I could see if I was irresponsible, but I pay bills like clockwork. I’m good at saving and I find little random jobs here and there to make the cash. I just didn’t want to get my dad into this because then he’ll wonder where I’m getting money from and he still doesn’t know I have a job. My mom knows, and she’s stressing me about putting the phone on his line and I know that will just cause problems. I want to do this on my own because it’s something that I want, and I can’t even do that.

I’m getting tired of this site. Whenever I get some time I’m gonna make a generic blog layout or something. I’ve been so busy lately. Actually I should be doing something now but I’ve been procrastinating for the past 2 hours. I just don’t wanna I want to spiral curl my hair, but I don’t want to put any heat in it. My hair is sooooo straight and I know when I put heat in it it’s just gonna look fried. I thought I ordered some curlers online but they never showed up…I also cut my hair today I look weird with short hair. Whenever I get a chance to go back to Detroit I’m gonna get it cut into a bob-like style. I want my hair to grow back even, so that’s about the only thing that I can do.

I need to start working out. I think I’m gaining weight and that’s not what I want to do.

These chicks were rushing last night and they were making so much noise in the hall. Well, rush was Tuesday so I guess they were having the lil soro-parties. I know they were drunk though. Too drunk.

Friday night and I’m stuck at home studying. This bites.

I’m so tired of people being so inconsiderate. This is why I have problems with communicating…it never fails…as soon as I tell someone what’s wrong with me/how I feel they take it as a weakness and just walk all over me. I’m tired of it. I’m tired of people wanting to be my friend or associating with me because it’s beneficial to them. I’m tired of people talking about me behind my back. But you know what I’m really tired of…I’m tired of putting up with this bullshit. I’m tired of thinking that you are different…I’m tired of trusting…I’m tired of putting my morals on the line. I care too much, and I’m too damn nice. I put up with stuff that I know I don’t deserve. I’m so hurt right now because I thought this person was my friend, but not only did they lie to me and hurt me…they pulled me out of my character. I did something that I now regret. I don’t see why it’s so hard for me to learn my lesson. This happened before, not with the same friend, but this situation happened. Even before this all happened I told them how I felt and what I went through, and they said they understood, but now I understand. They only did what benefited them. It’s cool though. Life shall go on. I’m so pissed and bitter right now. Luckily I don’t have time to worry about it since I’m studying for a Biology exam that’s on money. The joys of life…

The past few days have been crazy. A lot of things have been going on in my life that I haven’t mentioned. I just haven’t had time to blog. I thought I didn’t blog since the 19th, but I did…shows how much I come here, lol. Even though I’m not blogging I’m still spending way to much time online. I have to cut down those hours and just start studying. If I follow the schedule that I made for myself I wouldn’t have anytime available to even touch my computer But that is so unreal, so I need to tweek that schedule just a bit.

Miracles do happen…that’s the subject of this blog. As some of you may know (LJ friends), my dad got into an accident yesterday. The handicap van that he drives ran over him. How it happened is unbelieveable. He explains it to me and I’m just sitting there with my mouth wide open. The doctors say its a miracle that he’s even alive. How everything was set up so much could have went wrong, but he is okay. He didn’t even break a bone. Prayer is the key…faith unlocks the door. I say that over and over again but that statement is so real. He was laying in the middle of a busy street in Detroit and at that time the street was deserted, which is quite odd. Then 2 city trucks showed up and blocked off the street and called the EMS. If I sat down and explained the entire story you would really see why it is a miracle. He might be coming home today. They have to run some more blood work and marrow tests just to see if no poision leaked through, but if all is well he will be back home soon.

I talked to my mom this morning. I was telling her how I wanted to be there because its horrible to be away when something is going wrong with your family, but at the same time I couldn’t bare to see that image. She told me that no matter how much we stay mad at each other (my father and I) we both love each other to death. That is so true. That’s my daddy. You guys don’t know how scared I was. Talking to him now is just like it use to be in the old days. He told me that he loved me. I was in a state of shock. I just don’t hear those words from him often. He also was talking about taking things for granted. I guess you realize things when you feel like your life is a second from being over. If anything, I just hope he does change. I hope our family can be a family again like it once use to be.

In other good news, I got rid of that blackberry…thanks to ebay and my gf I’m just waiting for a money order since I don’t want to set up a business account with ebay…so yea.

I did my hair. It is so soft and straight. It’s also gold. That effect happens when you go from blonde to brown and the brown starts to wash out. It’s cute though. I’m thinking about spiral curling it this weekend…but I don’t want to put heat in my hair. I don’t flat iron it…I don’t blow dry it, I just wash and go and its so straight and soft. Ahhh…

I have to go to work today. I don’t want to, but oh well. I also have to be at a meeting in 8 minutes so I should be going…take care, and hopefully I’ll blog again soon. Toodles

*Oh, and to you know who…I have a surprise for you that I’m gonna put on air the next time I’m at the station. Muahahahah…8O*

Hey guys. I’m doing so great. Man. This is one of those days when it seems like nothing can bring me down. It’s all good, and I’m cheesing. I’m so CrazySexyCool…I’m O’So Chrissy, haha. Yes, you better believe I watched the last episode of R U The Girl. I’m mad that it’s over. I wish I was able to go there and see them I’m thinking about buying the series on DVD…not 100% sure yet. I love the new single. You need to take a listen to I Bet if you haven’t done so yet

I need to buy me a CD player soon. I want the one that I saw at Toys ‘R Us last year. Of course it is purple like everything else in my room, but it was hot. It’s like a mini-stereo system. Lavender, 5-changer, and a space saver. I can’t find it online. I should have bought it when I saw it. I hope they still have it. I do need one though because I’m becoming too dependent of my laptop playing all my tunes and music is taking up too much space on my hard drive. I think I’m at 8GB now.

Classes are…going. Lol. I’ve been slipping, but I know this week and until finals I will be booked. Completely. I will be living, breathing, thinking, and dreaming about schoolwork. It’s all good though cause I’m aiming for that 4.0.

I have to go to work early today so I can get off early. I’m not mad though. This is the first time I’ll be able to leave before close! I’m so excited!!! Yesterday was crazy. I got sick for a minute cause my food took forever and a day to get here and I skipped too many meals this week, but after I did eat things turned around for me My cold is still hanging on by a strand, but I’m thinking it should be gone by the end of this weekend.

I really want to update this site. I guess I’ll have to pencil that into my schedule when I find some available time. Most likely tonight. I have to design some t-shirts, which will require me to draw and do some graphics which I haven’t done in a loooooong time. But the concept is hot. I wasn’t even thinking about it and the image just came into my head. That’s how I like it to happen

Well I spent some time here…guess I better get ready for work. Have a great weekend!

This week I plan to catch up on a lot of schoolwork…readings and such. I don’t have anything that’s due besides my math, so it shouldn’t be that hard. Man, we get assigned so much reading in English. It’s like what in the world is this. I could understand if it was a pure English class, but this is a writing class. Oh well. As long as I get to write I’m happy. I’m kind of disappointed on how I did on my poetry assignment. I brushed that off to the side and I put 5 minutes toward it, which is why I did so poor. I know I’m capable of better, which is why I’m disappointed. I do know that next time I will spend a few hours on it and get the grade that I deserve.

Does anyone own a Sidekick or a Blackberry? I just bought a Blackberry and now I see that I don’t really want it anymore. I just think it’s useless to pay $30 a month for it. I know it will be helpful by keeping me organized, but having the internet at the palm of my hands everywhere I go will be a big distraction. Having the internet in my room is a big distraction. Whenever it gets here I’m gonna auction it off on Ebay because I really don’t need it. I’m also gonna contact my friend and see if I can buy his Palm Pilot off of him since he doesn’t use it. Mines was very useful until it broke

I’m seriously thinking about taking a piano class next semester. I just have a problem with getting up early. I want to take it though, so I’m gonna have to make some sacrifices. Since I’m not in the school of music I’ll have to do an audition and depending on the open seats they might let me in. I’m not all about auditions either, but we have an excellent school of music, so why not take piano classes for “free” instead of paying for them out of my pocket. Makes sense. I really want to be in Marching Band too. Our band is great. But I know that I wont be able to do that. I’ll have NO time. The perk about being in the band is you get to travel with the football team. I would like to march in the Rose Bowl in Cali on TV…yep.

I can’t wait for R U The Girl to come on tomorrow. I’m an addict. Like it seems like forever since the last show came on. I’ve been watching their ATL Tour Concert DVD every night since then. I need help! I’m trying to buy some posters for my room. I had some last year, but as far as what happened to them…for all I know they could be in the trash, and knowing my father that’s probably the case. I do want some good posters of Christina Aguilera & TLC. I don’t know where to go though. I tried AllPosters.Com and they didn’t have any that I really liked. I’m thinking about going to the Digital Studio whenever I get rid of this cold and making my own. Making HQ stuff is a fortune though. It’ll probably still be cheaper than what they cost on the net including shipping & handling. We’ll see what happens…

I’m thinking it’s time for a new layout. I need to have my little sister make something for me. Her talent is hot. She’s so mature for her age, yet she sounds so young. I guess you could say she’s a mini version of me…except she has a mouth on her, and she will be heard, whether you like it or not. I love my sibs. I love spoiling them and everything. My brother is so hilarious. Man. I was gonna buy them 2 PSP’s for Christmas, but I think I’m just gonna get them a PS2 or X-Box since they wont be able to take the PSP’s out of the house without someone trying to jack them for it. They both want cell phones but the last time I gave my sister a cell she lost it…so I’m mad at her for that one. I think I will look into a T-Mobile Family plan cell phone deal, or something. Christmas is around the corner, and I don’t want to be broke afterwards so I’m gonna start looking for stuff now.

I feel all icky. I have a cold. My throat is so swollen. When I open my mouth wide I can barely see the back

Anyway, I think some of my school friends are mad at me. I’m not sure though. I know one day at dinner they came in when I was leaving out and said I wasn’t supposed to be there, and I told them why I changed my mind. My ex-roommate pissed me off so bad and I was so mad, so I went there to get my mind off of that. Anyway, yesterday on my way to Rite Aide I stopped by the barbecue since it was behind the bus stop and some of the upperclassmen I knew from boot camp or last year stopped me and we hugged and chatted for a minute. I went to the table they were sitting at and it was just like they didn’t even want to speak. I was like damn.

I’m thinking it was either because of the main reason I didn’t want to go…you know how people get around other people and act funny…or they are mad at me. I’m not pressed. I don’t ask for people to be my friends, and half of the time they aren’t really friends anyway.

I’ve gone back to my online shopping ways again. I’m going to stop…really. I’m going through my bank statement and you would not believe…smh. I was thinking about subscribing my little sister to Seventeen or some other magazine. I got 8 years of CosmoGirl a long time ago when I use to do this other business and it doesn’t expire until 2008…so instead of me changing the address again I might just put her name on it and let her have them. They just take up space when I have them in my dorm because I hardly ever read them unless I’m bored out of my mind.

This week has been quite different for me. I don’t even know what to say about it. All I know is I’m gonna contact the person who my contract is under and find out when I can get out because it is not worth all of this drama. I looked at it online and it says it expires in January of 2007. I can’t deal with these people for that long. I really don’t want to let that phone go though, cause it’s only $10 a month…and if I get my own plan it will be about $40 a month. I bought a blackberry and that will make my plan go up to $70 a month Blah. I wish the world didn’t operate on money. But I guess I can’t change that.

I have to work today. This will be quite interesting since I can barely speak. Plus my body is acting really weird. It does this when I start taking different meds. It’s quite scary, but what can I do???

We all know life is crazy, okay now to that add my life, and to that add college. Whew. I could be a black girl on the real world, yep. I’ve only watched a few episodes of that show from any given season, and it looks like they pick the people with the most problems. I think the only thing that would count against me is I’m not the loud and obnoxious type. Besides that…yep. I got issues. My dad is crazy. I peeped into his paypal account that I totally forgot he had and I was gonna transfer some money from his checking account to my paypal, but I decided not to just cause I’m not there and he would go off on my mom or something. He has enough issues. You would think something things would change since she’s home 24/7 now, but nope. Still out. Still doing whatever. Still evil as hell. Some people never change. I might save the rest of this for my LJ where I tend to do personal venting or just random rambling, which turns into personal after a few paragraphs.

School. School. School. All I can say is you gotta bust your butt to get good grades. I know I will be doing that this semester. I have a heads up in my English class since I’m able to go on and on and on about a topic, so today we had an impromptu writing assignment. I don’t like writing by hand, but whatever. I was wrote 2 pages in 10 minutes and I was staring at the wall the rest of the hour. I think she liked it cause when I handed it in she started smiling. I’m mad. My printer is broke. First my palm pilot, now my printer. Best Buy’s Bullshit! Yep, I need to take a trip out there and hand them my laptop, my printer, and palm pilot. It’s funny cause I’m oh so gentle with these things and they just break without warning. My printer was perfectly fine 2 days ago. I hadn’t touched or moved it since then. I don’t know what’s the deal. I don’t feel like taking it apart but I might do that this weekend or something. Sad.

What is also sad is my shopping habits. I don’t do it a lot, but I do splurge at times. That’s when I know I can afford it. I basically dumped my dreams of getting a car anytime in the near future to the side. Besides once I get one I’ll have to get insurance, buy gas, and do other stuff. I’ll be in this city for a few more years so I just gotta use what I got, and ask for friends to take me places when need be. I know how to make money stretch when I don’t have any, so I’ll be okay.

I’ve decided to become an RA. It really all depends on how I do in school this year, but I’m leaning toward that position. It’s not a hard job, it’s just a time consuming job. And you really have to care. That’s the main thing. People that I’ve been working with this year have been telling me that I should do it, and I would be great at it. I just need to step up to the plate.

I’m so proud of myself. I’m getting in shape…see it doesn’t take much work. Actually I haven’t been to the gym at all…I’ve been walking like crazy, and this campus is huge, so I’ve been walking a lot. I do plan to get in the gym soon and I know that’ll tone me up. I was looking in the mirror today like

I’m interested in finding out about my roots. Someone with the same last name contacted me and saying that we might be family. There is a good chance that we are. There are very few African-Americans with my last name, and if they do have it, that question does come up. My family tree is scattered, and it is extremely hard to map it out, especially now since both of my grandfathers are gone. I know in high school people used to ask me what country I came from because of that name. All I know is that I’m from the US. I’m determined to find out answers to so many of my questions…and one day when I have a child of my own I’ll be able to inform them as well.

You never know what you’re gonna get from my blogs. Neither do I. I just type, and what you see is what you get. I should go take a shower and get ready to go to bed. I do have class tomorrow, among other things…

Yep, it’s the second week of school and I already feel swamped, mind you I still haven’t started some of my classes yet (like labs and discussions). My life will be very interesting once all of that starts happening, which will begin tomorrow. I’m so tired. I had to write 2 english papers. This is the first time that I’ve actually had to write a paper that was graded since high school. I did write a few papers last year but those were Engineering papers, and engineering papers are different from english papers. I’m glad to be done with that though. I still have to proofread and do other stuff of that nature, but for the most part I’m done. I have a quiz tomorrow and one on Wednesday. I hope the week starts to ease down once Thursday hits. I’m debating on wheter or not I should buy a math book. It’s $120 and I can use the same book from last year because the text is the same, and the numbers are all there, but they are in a different order, which is a pain in the you know where. My other option is to ask the guy that lives downstairs for his book since he is in my team homework group. I know I should probably do that tonight but I honestly don’t feel like it, and I don’t think it’ll be to hard. I have a short break tomorrow and I’ll try to do it then before my group meets.

Ugh, I hate when I type faster than what is shown on the computer. It makes me feel like I have to slow down for it to catch up. It’s crazy. Computers aren’t perfect so I expect problems like these from time to time.

I’m thinking about buying a Blackberry. Well, I’m bidding for one on ebay as I type. I don’t need a phone, but today while I was in my biology class my Palm Pilot just decided to stop working. I was all panicing at first, then I calmed down. I knew my battery wasn’t dead because I charged it the previous night, but I considered that an option and came back to my room and plugged it up. Nothing happened. Hours later, it’s still not working! I spent a lot of time getting myself organized and it’s all gone now. Oh well. I just wonder what happened. It was sitting on my desk one minute, and I checked the time on it. A little while later I tried to do the same and nothing happened. A mystery. I wanted to use Kristi’s since she never uses hers but she gave it away to her mentor last year I can’t do anything about that, and instead of wasting $100 on another PDA I just decided to get a phone/PDA so I could get extra features such as email, the internet, and a phone of course I was going to buy a Sidekick sometime this year because I have too many internet problems so this just falls in line. I just hope I get it.

Well I’m off to relax and watch another Hilary Duff movie. It’s just something about Disney and those teen fairy tales that I love. They’re greeaaaaat! As Tony would say Man, Ice Princess is the cutest movie. You gotta watch that if you haven’t seen it yet. So cute. What I’ve watched at least a million times, and owned a copy of (until I played it so much that it actually broke) is Walt Disney and Whitney Houston presents Roger and Hammersteins Cinderella. Yep. I know every song, every line, every pause, every look, every motion. I don’t even have to look at the screen, if it’s on the movie plays in my head. That’s sad, I know…I’m a bit obsessed, but I love that movie! And back then I use to have a photographic memory, so that helped a bit, too.

I need a long shower or a hot bath. Or is it a hot shower and a long bath? Whatever, it is I wont be able to get the tubs in this dorm. Ewww. And I try not to make my showers last too long because I do share a bathroom with 5 girls and that’s just rude. Speaking of the bathroom condition…it’s been excellent. Last year was just a hell whole. This year has been really good. I think that’s cause the girls actually have manners. Speaking of, my roommate finally called today. She left a message and she said “hi, its me, I want to come by and pick up the money…”, well, okay. I just know if I haven’t talked to someone in 5 months I wouldn’t leave that message, especially since I’ve been trying to get in contact with HER, and when she does return my call that’s what she leaves. People are crazy. This just shows she knows both of my numbers because she called both of them today…so hmmm…whatever, I’ll pay and keep on stepping. Don’t bother me one way or the other.

I need to go to the graphics studio. They probably banned me from there. I know I tried to get in the engineering computer lab the beginning of the year and it kept flashing a red light with “Access Denied”…I tried 3 times and then I got the point. I don’t think they kicked me out of the department because no one was in there, so maybe it was just closed since school wasn’t in session yet. I don’t know. I need to talk to those engineering people to. I try to avoid them at all costs cause they only make things harder for me

Today has been a really good day. Last night my floor had a power outage and My television, fan, and alarm clock broke I was mad because that happened no more than 10 minutes after my internet was fixed. I go to the front desk this afternoon and protest. They have issues. The boy down there is cool cause he remembers me from last year, but his manager…grrr! That man has issues. He came up to my room to see if I was lying so I plug the stuff in for him. He says how do I know the plug is working. I show him that the fridge is plugged into the same thing and it’s working. He then unplugs everything and tries for himself. He said he’s never seen this happen and I should call fix-it. I ask him what are they gonna do? Last time I checked they fixed room problems and not appliances. Whatever. I just wanted him out of my room so I didn’t even press it. I might go down to Central Campus to talk to the people that can give me answers.

I saw my friend on the bus today. First time this year. I called their phone and told them to turn around. We were like hey…since we keep missing each other. We ate lunch, and I came to an overall conclusion. Guys are scum. Yep. Why? Okay, I’m the type who doesn’t have many friends because I don’t like to “let people in”…and even still I tend to have more male friends than females because females bring issues. Out of all those male friends all have hurt me in some way or another. And even though I did get hurt there is still one friend that I do trust because doing our entire friendship he never turned anything into sexual and the only thing that was shared was a kiss. That kiss made everything hard because no matter how I try to put it…it just wasn’t supposed to happen. Anyway, that’s the only male friend I know I can call up and just cry to if I ever needed to without hearing any BS.

But back to my reason why guys are scum. Why the fuck do they have to make everything so sexual? You ask them if you’re their friend…they say you’re an associate because you wont do something for them. You ask them to take you somewhere they ask you what will you do for them. You can just be talking about random things and they ask you something totally out of the question. It’s not cute. It’s not even necessary. I wrote 2 blogs similar to this yesterday but I didn’t post them because they got deleted so I said to hell with it, and I was going to leave it alone. Until today. Until the exact same thing happened today. What the fuck is the problem? I don’t know how you go around getting girls, but that is not a way to approach me. I get annoyed when the first thing that comes out of a guys mouth is ‘you got a man’. Ugh. Which is why I respond with ‘No, I got a girl’ and walk away. This is where I miss having long hair. I need something to flip across my shoulders. I really use to be a nice approachable person, but nope…people want to call me a bitch so I’ll really give them something to talk about. I’m still nice, but not as nice as I use to be. I guess I’m finally getting fed up.

I need to go take a shower and wash my hair. I have to take pics for the poster today and since I’m trying to cut down on the heat I’m gonna do the wet/curly look. My hair looks hott. It’s different shades and now all the different dyes I had over the summer are all starting to blend in. I want to get it dyed like T-boz’s cause I like the different colors. I want to be in so much stuff, but I know I’ll never have the time. My inbox is full of audition dates for this and that but I can’t do it.

I’m tired of these credit card people contacting me. Goodness gracious. I was considering quitting my job, but I still have a lot of things to take care of since I went to another school in the summer and that really puts me behind…so I’ll keep it and work off that debt. Hopefully I’ll be all set by the time spring rolls around. I should stop rambling and go take care of some business. I missed this whole typing about whatever I want thing

I’m blogging! Haha…I bet that was expected. Today was the first day of classes. An amazing first day if I might add. I loved loved loved it I’m in the computer lab AGAIN since they still haven’t fixed my internet. At least I know it’s not just my room because several others are having problems in my dorm. The thing is mines has been out for about a week, and theirs comes on and off. UGH! I got my check today. A pretty good check for only 2 days of work. Oh, and I’m getting paid more than I thought. No one actually told me what I was getting paid, and I didn’t want to ask…so I decided to wait for the check. I must say that I am happy. Oh…and I’m also happy about books. I bought my Biology book for $30 off of ebay. It’s an older edition but basically the same stuff so I’m saving at least $100. I also bought my poetry book off of half.com and that was only $1.75 so I’m saving $50. Yep…that would make anyone happy. Now I have to buy my 2 English books which should be around $30 together if I play my cards right. Last semester I spent $500 on books…this semester I’m spending no more than $70. I refuse to waste that much money ever again! Being internetless is so inconvenient, but it does give me a reason to leave my room. Not that I would like to, but whatever. As you can see my blogs have been pretty short lately because this lab smells like mildew and I’m scared that fungus will start growing on my lungs if I stay to long. These keyboards are super stiff. Yesterday I used the Mac which was better but the mouse was messed up. I miss using my own stuff I don’t know what’s up with my credit card bill. It looks like they waived the $1,000 bill and bumped me up to platinum status. How did that happen? I don’t know, but I’m glad and I’m not going to question it. All I know is I’m looking at the statement and it says I spent $52 when in all actuality I might only have $52 left…hmm. I hope they don’t catch on. I need to spend some time on the net and catch up rather than these brief 30 minute visits Well I’m going to go now. Ta-ta…